Pen On Paper

Gotta save this one too - awesome.

Draws like I think

This guy draws like many of my dreams go - how I think and movement evolves in my dreams.

A position on my staff...

...or is that how to comment on my post?

A friend mentioned not being able to make a comment on my blog without logging in first. Just wanted to mention, since I was encouraging you to write comments, that you only have to log in you want to be recognized, otherwise you have the options under "Choose and Identity" of Google/Blogger (log in), Other (enter your name, web link optional), or Anonymous.

I don't know what it was in the past, but that was one reason I left Friendster - I didn't want people to have to create an Friendster account just to post.

Arco Voltaico

I believe that last word heard on this video rhymes with "duck"

So this guy walks into a grocery store...

So I'm in the grocery store looking at the microwavable dinners and it hits me like a sack of bricks. I start tearing up realizing I'm 37 years old, alone, looking at instant dinners.

Thoughts of being undesirable single; thoughts I have no one to cook for; thoughts I have no one that wants to cook for me; no one who loves me in that way.

No amount of thinking about how great it is to have friends, or that I have wonderful daughters, or that most of my past relationships created some unique happiness can undo the feeling - I'm about to loose it right there in the frozen food isle.

I zoned out and checked out. I'm glad no one stopped and asked if I was OK, because I would have lost it. I was too sensitive and vunerable at the time to do anything else.

Thoughts of non-attachment; thoughts that we are all alone, even when we think we have someone; thoughts if the person I loved died, what would I do, thoughts that I delude myself thinking someone has the same feelings I do.

I miss the illusion that someone loves me for me. I'm unsure of myself to trust I can do it since I thought someone loved me and I was wrong. The shared illusion - that I was loved and loved someone - was in fact a delusion; only I felt that way. Makes me feel like I'm unskilled and unable to figure it out through clarity of thought, it must be blind luck - and I don't feel lucky.

Being present in the moment helps me live through these times, but it is very unpleasant. I'd much rather intellectualize the fact that life is a gift and we are alone while smothered in the glorious shared illusion of being loved.

World of Whatever

Yeah, this is what I spend my time on...whatever!

V visits the US government to file petitions

A long video, but watch these asshats. The government is made of people and they forget they serve first. If you are in public office, especially police, you should be subject to video while on duty.

I need to get my V suit ready...

Where for art thou, blog?

I don't like friendster's blog for a few reasons and I do like blogger's blog (did I just say that?) for a few reasons, so I've moved all my stuff over to my new blogs: http://gggildas.blogspot.com/ will be where my poetry (dare I say art? It may be a self performance only, which makes me feel like I've been masterbating in public. I hope you enjoy the show!) will be. My regular blog nonsense will be on here (http://gildas.blogspot.com/), where it always has been.

Now this is a good thing for you who bother to visit and watch me drool, you can use Atom or RSS feeds to track my postings. No longer waiting on Freindster's lackluster abilities, it seems to come home late and drunk more often than not, and I'm tired of waiting up for it. (Imagine me with curlers in my hair)..wait for it...wait for it..Bingo! [It helps to know I shave my head].

Now for those of you who don't know what the hell I'm talking about, I offer you a free geek card, redeemable by visiting Wikipedia's article about Atom feeds and perhaps Wikipedia's article about RSS. I personally use the Firefox Web Browser for just about everything so I installed The Sage feed reader but as I mentioned, you can use whatever tool you choose.

I've deleted my old postings and moved them into the new blogs. Sorry for the auto-feed update nonsense - I'm still learning.

Oh, one more thing. I've heard directly some of you like my postings. Please do feel free to post a comment in the blogs. I use these things like diary entries and nothing would please me more to capture something from you to cherish and remember sometime in the future. I hope that pleases you as well.

Previous Posts

Previous Posts

• Our Song?
• Wanting
• Pains me
• Realizing
• Unrecognized Longing
• Matched set
• The Way
• Do. You.
• Empty picture frame
• Who did you give your time to?

If you care

You'll post a reply,
you'll perhaps,
venture a comment,
venture a word,
something better than nothing,
somethings written,
better than not,
better than that,
one word,
one can consider.

Before there were threat levels...

There were alert levels. Darn; we're still green...

I am a banana

One of my favorite cartoonist/artist.

Boob of death!

I didn't get to Dragoncon this year, but now I feel my 'con needs are sated...

Yeah, I'm goth

Creamy cheezy cheezy, yeah. I'm cream AND cheezy!

Need a new place

Not really happy with Friendster's formatting. Been thinking about moving my blogs together on my own server. Their formatting sucks and (although I block with Firefox's adblock so I don't see them) I don't like their advertising placements either.

Why Time Travel Won't Work...

Thanks Gary!
Part 2: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=I0zFtBuFNiw&NR

Brokeback Djs

Couldn't quit you - damn guitar rifts - so I modified you - now I can move..on and on..

And people

...who talk at the theater

And now for not so fuzzy

but still cute!

I want a new baby

I wish I had the place and support needed for a new child.